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The State of the Mommy

Well, I had a really good time at Consonance. I felt guilty about having such a good time away from the girls, but I reallllllly needed it.
I felt guilty about having such a good time being substitute toastmistress on Sunday when Roper took Erica to the ER for x-rays. but it was by no means paralyzing guilt.

I seem to have the tummy bug now. I am belching like an 11 year old. Alka-seltzer is my friend.

Julie climbed the stairs today. Three times. Once unassisted and unsupervised.
A new level of chaos has been introduced into our lives.

Now I must do my departmental report in preparation for the Capricon wrap-up meeting.

How's your life?



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Mar. 16th, 2009 04:48 am (UTC)
Michael has discovered going down steps solo, and the joy of slides at the playground. Hooray for warm weather!

Oh, and wait until Katie and Julie start working together to get places and do things you're not expecting or really wanting :-)

Edited at 2009-03-16 04:49 am (UTC)
Mar. 16th, 2009 03:21 pm (UTC)
Oh, I was very very grateful to have you be Toastmistress in my absence - I didn't have to worry because I knew it was in good hands. *hug* Thank you so much!
Mar. 16th, 2009 03:22 pm (UTC)
Moms deserve breaks too. Besides, the little ones need to learn social skills, like dealing with their uncle.
Mar. 16th, 2009 04:28 pm (UTC)
My life misses your life. I don't know how we fix that before Penguicon, though.
Mar. 16th, 2009 07:49 pm (UTC)
Sorry to tell you. . .
Okay, here's the bad news. . .it never goes away. The feeling of guilt. I think it's part of the mommy package. I think it's tied to worrying about your child. "What if something happens and I'm not there?" What if we should have found a preschool play group for her? What if we should have made her stay at camp? (She called because she hated it and we went and brought her home.) You can drive yourself mad worrying and feeling guilty about the choices you made. And well meaning friends will tell you that it's unreasonable to expect to do everything right - to make all the right choices. But, I've finally concluded, all that worry and guilt are worth it because you wouldn't worry and feel guilty if you didn't love them beyond reason.

And anyone who has ever been loved like this knows it. Your girls will grow up knowing you always did the best for them - even if the best was giving you a break so you could go back to them with more energy and joy.

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